Dear Familia,
I'm starting this blog for several reason. On January 1st my Grandmother died. A few months prior to her death I began wondering who she was. I never really knew my Grandma because she lived in New York for most of my childhood and only moved to Arizona when I was already in High School. I knew very little and when I tried to ask her about herself she was hesitant to answer questions.
During one conversation I told her why I was asking the questions. The reason being I had recently heard a story somewhere about a Grandma who had put a book together to leave with her children so they would know who she is. My Grandma told me that she didn't have an exciting life and so there was no need to write a book about her. That books were for people who did things in their life. I didn't necessarly want to write a book but I did want something to keep from her. We didn't have a good relationship, intact we had a very difficult relationship. I never really understood my Grandma. She was hard and some of the choices in her life didn't make sense, but she was my past and potentially my future. I wanted to know her.
After that conversation I called up my aunt and asked her some questions. I learned a lot of interesting things and found out their was mystery in our family. My Grandma never knew her father. She only knew her mother had a love affair with him and that he was a very attractive man, according to town folk in Puerto Rico. After I hung up the phone I could not understand why my Grandma didn't see how extrodinary her life really was. I mean this women raise 9 children on her own. She walked to the hospital while in labor, she didn't learn how to drive till she was 40 and she only owned two houses.
On January 1st My Grandma died. We dreaded going to her house every Christmas and going to visit her always made me nervous, but it didn't make the lose any easier. I had lost a part of my past. I now wish I had started asking questions sooner and visited her more often.
I'm going to use this blog to share intimate details about my life. I'm going to share my testimonies to help you understand my faith. I'm going to share my love for your father. I want you to know I loved him with a fiery passion even during the worst of times. I'm going to share the best of times and the worst of times. I want you guys to know who I was and what kind of life I've lead. I'm going to write in this every day. It may be a present story or something I felt that day I needed to share with you from the past. I will catagorize everything so you can find things easily in the further and piece it together.
I will end this by saying, hello future. If you are reading this I love you!
